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Sunday, July 05, 2009

Ah what's wrong with me?
I am feeling super _____ because it's raining now!

Issit an excuse for me because this is the first week? I hope so.
Because time spent is not fruitful.
Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday = revision.
But while.. what I did during this weekend.

Fri - nothing done. Uploaded pictures,blogged about bossaball.
Enjoy my day with computer and surfing the net. One day break and I am fine with that. :)

Sat
1. Woke up at around 6.30am. Took bus to bishan, mrt to last stop of red line(lol), and took bus 51 to acer building.

2. Went inside and found out that the place is ulu without anyone around and supposedly it start operation in 11 but we reached at 9.

3. Waited for the whole of 2hrs, having my phone battery left at 7%. Listening to korean songs with a cup of hot cappucino.

4. Headed back to the redemption area and realised the queue is very long.

5. Took a long bus ride from Jurong back to Hougang. More than 2hrs, can't wait to stand up due to long hours of sitting.

6. Afternoon nap and followed by studying for chinese oral.

Sunday
-Tuition in the morning
-Completed POA homework,but how about maths? Exercise 5F =/
-Going to study chinese NOW. But still procastinating,so please start as soon as possible.

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On a random note :
I am currently having a long tau foo for dinner while its raining outside.
And it feels good.

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I realised I couldn't study maths alone, I need help.
Frustrated,demoralised,unclear when doing exercises.
Stategies to overcome the barriers in me = group study with people who are good in maths.
Perhaps sophia since she is staying very near me and we could just meet up easily.
And maybe with ben, eugene and cassandra together since they do stay back in school so I hope they don't mine me joining them.
Do you know that I am irritating? I pissed people off.
I do not absorb information as fast as other people for maths.
Like when you teach person A question 1 for once, he/she will understand.
But for me, you need to repeat AGAIN AND AGAIN just for one pathetic question.
Ended up you're the one who suffer from teaching me.

Really hope god will place amazing people around me in this moment in time.
Need them to be patient, because I am a sucker in maths.
I need assistance, my family could not afford tuition and thus, I had to depend on myself.
Do have tuition but that's because of my own religion organisation,which is voluntary work.
But however, 2hrs on sunday is definitely not enough. ):

I seriously need some one to talk to.
I am over-reacting,but can anyone just encourage/counsel me?
Every night before I sleep I will always imagine myself for not passing 'N's, not able to be in the same class with the gang.
That's scary, like REALLYYY scary. I do not want that to happen in reality.
Sometimes I lose my appetite when I think of the days is just weeks away from now.

Note to self :
Just hang on, 2 more months.
That matters whether if you do spend another 1 more year in secondary school.
If you want to have an enjoyable holidays from October to December without any worries
If you want to celebrate christmas happily knowing that you are going back to school for sec 5
If you want to come out of the examination hall with confidence and no regret
If you want to be with your friends and taking 'O' level together
If you want to be the one who are joyful and smiling to yourself during the release of 'N' level result
THEN.STUDY.HARD.NOW!

I swear I am going to put in effort and work hard for English and Maths.
English for me was while, okay. At least for 'N' level standard.
Even though my grammer,vocabulary,sentence structure is not strong. Infact, it's weak.
Underperform for prelim 1 because I really don't know what happened to me.
Out of ideas to write a composition and paper 2 was blah.
But will prove to myself in prelim 2 and eventually, for 'N's :)

Maths maths maths! I am going to do practise,meet up with the gang to study.
Please, I can't allow myself to fail maths.*insert many sad face*

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Chemistry Metals class test this coming Tuesday together with 'N' level English oral in the afternoon.
No youth day because it will be spent on revision!
Please wish me all the best.
Passage? Yes
Picture description? No.
Conversation? Yes/half-half.

Thanks, Leow!
Really hope to do well for English Oral.

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Sometimes I really want to talk to my parents. Really.
But they're those kind when they're young they live in kampong. You know what I mean?
In simple words, they do not receieve much education.
So there's somehow a communication gap between me and them.

Example : when I say I am stress. Their reply : SIAO AH!( no more than that )
When my friends say that they're stress to their parents. Their reaction : Gave them a warm hug,will find a way to talk to them.
And I finally realised how my sis, which is 5 years older than me without anyone leading her when she's taking her national exams.
She's alone in this battle.
At least for now, I can talk to my sis, she had been through this process and knows how it feels like.
Then the more both of us should study hard, let our parents have a better life when we start our career and step into the society.
It hurts seeing dad whose fingers has got 5 stiches and spend 100bucks visiting a doctor.
Because he accidentally cut himself while working.

Done ranting. The feeling's great, to blog out everything about what I had been feeling for this few days.
Should not think too much. But still...

P.S : I think I have break my own record for publishing 3 entries within a week of 7 days.
P.P.S : I slept from 2-5. Enjoy from 6-9. Now it's time to STUDY for chinese oral!
Why am I always wasting away those precious time?zz.

Jiahao,17yrs old.
Yuying Secondary.

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